I have a tendency to say Yes to things, when I feel intuitively guided, or when the universe nudges me, or outright kicks me in the butt. In my book, I share a story about how the universe put me in a Deeksha Oneness Blessing Giver certification class. I never signed up, but somehow I was registered. I took that as a sign from the universe, checked in with my intuition, and knew that it was important for me to attend.

Initially a little bored, it turned out to have a profound impact for me. The boredom was just my ego’s resistance to letting go, as the experience revealed a deeper knowing, and comprehension of great wisdom appeared over time.

Since the initial training, I had not been active in the Deeksha Community, but that doesn’t matter. Sri Bhagavan of Oneness University teaches the importance of not following as he promotes self-discovery (Oneness University). Interesting how messages come up in “Synchronicity” (The Police The Police – Synchronicity 1) since a similar message about discovering your own path is in the book “Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse. I had read it just weeks before hearing about the new Sacred Chamber event.  “Siddhartha is a great read for anyone choosing an experiential journey.

So what was this Sacred Chamber that I decided to say yes to? Well let’s just describe it as a contemplative event that can move us towards “Oneness.” History? Creation? I couldn’t find that on a google search in under a minute, so I let it go, and I accept that it IS profound. Nothing more matters right now.

As I am sitting in contemplation for the first meditation, and in the 1st Chamber, I am being haunted by the words, “I am nothing before the sight of God.”  I am nothing? Really?  That sounds like religious rhetoric and dogma. While having a disturbing familiarity to it, but I didn’t allow it to piss-me-off, the way I often have in the past. Since then I’ve googled it a few times, and still have not found an exact religious text reference, or phrase worded this way.

The host directed me to move to the 2nd chamber for my personal alone time, and almost immediately the message came up again, but this time the words struck me differently.

“I am nothing BEFORE the sight of God.” Of course, I am nothing BEFORE the sight of God, he/she is our creator. How could I possibly be anything before being created in God’s imagination? I was nothing BEFORE the sight of God, now I AM in the sight of God, therefore, simply I AM. Do you think this IS a message regarding pure creation? If God (male or female, I don’t know) is our creator, how can we BE anything before we are in God’s sight to create us? Once again, a somewhat disturbing message such as “being nothing” was transmuted. Thanks Osho for making me more aware of the benefit of disturbances.

We complicate so much in our lives that the newly revealed message almost seems too simplistic, but is it?

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Certain Religions have taught us that we are less than God; that we are unworthy of God. It is a misperception of the words because of the way they are spoken. It’s the energy around the way the words have been presented. Being less than anything, inequality, is a belief contrived by religious control. Change the energy, perception, and idea of the words to the idea of pure creation, “I am nothing before the sight of God,” and you change the meaning from being less than, and we become equal; worthy. A divine direct connection is remembered, re-established; we were never separate. He/she is always with us. When you feel this, suddenly there is an “of course”, an “ah-ha.” I am nothing before the sight of God, but wow, how cool to KNOW that I am worthy because he/she created ME. Once God has you sighted in imagination that IS the moment of divine creation. How does this change the meaning of the words of Christ in John 14:12? All this I do, you shall do and greater,” Look it up. Read it.

This next thought, I borrowed from a friend, Tracy Brooker, www.consciouseducation.net. Tracy recognized that the reason Christ was divine was because he was never taught that he was “less” than divine, and therefore, didn’t forget his divinity. Wow! Brilliant! This is the Christed Consciousness; the perfect child; the divine child. We were all conceived this way. We’ve all simply forgotten. It is only through indoctrination that we perceive ourselves as anything less than divine, perceive ourselves as nothing. Another thought occurs to me; if a child is conceived unwanted, it’s quite possible that the forgetting can occur in the womb?

Your own personal divinity, think about it. Feel it. Know it. Integrate it…for yourself. If it disturbs you allow yourself to embrace the disturbance to discover why it disturbs you.

Queen – “Bohemian Rhapsody” is taunting me, and yes it fits. You can determine why. Queen- Bohemian Rhapsody

Our ego complicates the idea of “being nothing without God.” Our ego can be a twisted little deceiver, maybe even the devil in disguise, or perhaps it’s there to help us find we were worthy all along. Not only has the ego been a deceiver, but we’ve allowed ourselves to be deceived by the followers of ego who don’t even know they are followers.

So which do you prefer to follow the authentic self, which is the whole self, or the ego self who is only a portion of self? In my book, Why Bother? Because Self-Help is Never Stupid,  I say the ego gets a bad rap. It’s not the ego’s fault that it is only one part; one aspect of the whole; and that’s all we’ve listened to. Stop beating up the ego up because you haven’t been operating from the integrated self. Maybe we should apologize to the ego for being so hard on it when we’ve segregated and/or separated it from the whole, and not allowed it to participate with the whole, including the whole that is part of being God/god knowing that we are all part of whoever/whatever we were created by. Separate is an illusion created by fragmented parts of self, as a tool to shake up our awareness, and so that we can fully comprehend what being whole is. Try apologizing to that part of self and see what happens. Do it with awareness, staying out of arrogance, which is also from the ego. Try humility. Try living by Christ’s example.

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I am now  offering a process given to me during meditation to call home fragmented parts (aspects) of self to the whole in complete oneness. It’s a technique to embrace the full spectrum of you, and expands beyond our limited 2d or 3d thinking process.

Straying a bit from my rocker passion even though I included The Police and Queen, here are two beautiful songs in alignment with the I am nothing theme:
Jonathan Thulin – I Am Nothing Jonathan Thulin – “I Am Nothing”
Jason Nelson – Nothing Without You Jason Nelson –“Nothing Without You”