Of course, there is a lot of controversy surrounding the Josh Duggar molestation scandal. I’m going to take Jason Easley from Politicususa’s side: Fox News Interview Backfires Instead Shows Why Duggars Should Never Be Allowed Back On TV by Jason Easley. And…I’ll give some credit to Stephanie Marcus’s contribution to The Huff Post, for trying to present in a non-biased way Jim Bob And Michelle Duggar Break Their Silence In First Interview Following Child Molestation Scandal by Stephanie Marcus. The best credit goes to InTouch Weekly, and Carly Sitzer. Keep the “Freedom of Information” act flowing; InTouch Weekly Report on Josh Duggar by Carly Sitzer
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Seriously, one thing is really simple, SILENCE, is what has perpetuated the cycles of abuse of any kind. I don’t care what age you are. Abuse is passed down through generations until someone decides to stop it. My readers, and now listeners know that I like to laugh through chaos, but one thing that isn’t funny is the devastating trail of pain that gets left behind an act of abuse, molestation, or assault.
Abuse is dysfunctional, and often turns into multiple kinds of abuse. Saying that God or Jesus came to forgive, only perpetuates the cycle. We have free will, and a choice to stop, or end this kind of behavior. The Duggar’s want to preach, well the bible says this;
Revelation 21:7-8 ESV / 6 helpful votes
The one who conquers will have this heritage, and I will be his God and he will be my son. But as for the cowardly, the faithless, the detestable, as for murderers, the sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars, their portion will be in the lake that burns with fire and sulfur, which is the second death.”
I find this sickening. Like many survivors, I AM estranged from the people who made excuses for abuse, allowing it to be acceptable, so they could remain in denial, avoiding the responsibility to deal with the issue. I heard them use God, religion, forgiveness, and more, as excuses for doing nothing to help me recover. I was supposed to “just get over it;” words that trigger revictimization for survivors. Often victims are rebuked for speaking up, which is not an expression of love or support. Dismissal and indifference toward abuse is a sick way of showing love.
The girls (Josh’s sisters) may have said they don’t remember, however, I know from personal experience that this type of thing resurfaces at some point in life. The Duggar’s minimization of Josh’s behavior, and the imposing of their beliefs, is exactly what has caused so many victims to not speak up. This also proves the point that there are often multiple types of abuse occurring, which complicates the issue, in this case sexual abuse compounded by religious abuse, compounded by imposed family belief. It goes on, and on. This is a big cluster *&#@ and makes me want to vomit.
If they have any real sincerity, when it comes to getting help, I’ll give them minimal credit, but only minimal since they have minimized the severity of what Josh had done. Child or not, he knew it was wrong and made the choice.
I try to be a kind, loving, gentle, and compassionate person, BUT this time I have to say this…may they all burn in their own living hell. Another thing, with all those kids in the house, you can’t tell me some of them didn’t have curiosity influenced by what they heard coming from the parent’s bedroom. Talk about “do as I say, not as I do.” Expectations need to be considered here.
Here’s you song for today: Break the Silence – Nick Jonas
Yes, I know I have strange titles for my posts, but my readers know that when they stick with me, it all starts to make a little more sense.
I’m also taking this post in a different direction, to talk about love and dating. For survivors those feelings of being unlovable, can trap us into a need to be loved since we have difficulty giving love to ourselves. We try to make up for it by having someone else love us. This why we need to get really clear and comfortable with ourselves, because that need can attract the wrong people. If we aren’t sovereign in knowing ourselves, we unknowingly attract some of the same kinds of abuse, even though it may not show up early on in a relationship.
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When I share my stories, it’s not about me. They are shared with the intent that the story resonates for you. Maybe through my stories, you can find the truth and humor in your own story. It’s about whatever it takes to propel the awakening process.
Fresh off a retreat in beautiful Sundance, Utah, with fabulous people, hosted by the phenomenal staff Achieve Coaching (www.iachievetoday.com), I came home to harsh reality checks in many areas of my life. This can happen after being on such a high at a retreat. But… the more you practice consciousness, the faster you don’t buy into the lows, and you bounce back higher.
Let’s not forget it’s Mercury Retrograde, which brings up a lot our crap. Remember when crap shows up, it’s asking for attention so we can clear it. It requires us to slow down and take a little review of our lives. It’s actually perfectly designed. Let’s not forget, “it’s not all about you,” Mercury Retrograde happens for those around us too. If you don’t know what Mercury Retrograde is, look it up.
The reason I am such a proponent of consciousness is that what in the past, I would have viewed as life shattering, actually leaves me laughing and feeling much more peaceful than I would have in the past. I have a sense of what equanimity is.
The topic of soul mates has been coming up repeatedly, not just for me, but it seems to be a big theme for many. Relationships are changing, so I want to touch on this. In doing so the intent is that survivors will go into new relationships with more awareness, and more sovereignty. There are lots of varying opinions on what soul mate, twin flame, true love relationships are, or what it means. Do some research. Draw your own conclusion, but be cautious of all the misinformation too. Don’t buy into everything you hear. Check in with how YOU feel. Put your ego desires aside, and ask your authentic self “what do I know to be true?
We have lots of soul mates. Why do I say this? Because every member of our soul group is a soul mate. Let’s consider the common expression by an unknown author, “people show up in our lives for a season, a reason, or a lifetime.” Don’t forget it works both ways. We show up in their lives too. Soul mates do not have to be romantic, sexual, or stick around forever. Twin Flames are an entirely different subject, and best explained by those in a true twin relationship. For that I’d recommend Mel and Nicole at www.twinflames.ca.
Since I started to study consciousness, I was taught when any relationship has ended, it is always best to look at the love and the lessons with gratitude. That would mean love and lessons from spirit, universe, or even the other person. Easier said than done, right? We can observe bitterness coming from our own ego, but it’s best to explore that with a sense of integrity and let it go. Be happy with what was gained, regardless of any pain. After all, on a spiritual level, we made agreements, and we’ve played roles for each other in other time-lines (other lives).
Seeing others work through emotions in this way, meaning looking at the love and the lessons, I’ve allowed myself to be clear, sovereign and at peace with my choices. We are not responsible for other’s emotional state; they are. We are only responsible for our own, including the moments when our own emotional state isn’t exactly what we’d like it to be.
Here is a quote from Osho that I revisit often:
Okay, so let me spill some truth about me. By conscious choice, I’m single again after a 12 year live-in relationship.I also had a 16 year marriage prior. In the last few months, I’ve opened myself to dating again, and I’ve attracted the season or reason men. How does the Osho quote fit in? Well notice Osho’s quote says shog, not shag. Yes, I know I have a warped sense of humor, but we are talking about relationships and dating. I thought it would be fun to inject a little Austin Powers humor. Until we know where a relationship is going, it’s not a good idea to shag too soon anyway. Because we have so much love to give, and we want to feel loved, shagging can create unconscious attachments that might not be good for us. I’m not telling you what to do when it comes to dating or shagging, just cautioning you to be wise with your choices, and your heart. Accept that sometimes, it is what it is.
As it turns out, I’ve been doing some shogging. Since I’m shogging, not shagging, I’m good with these guys being the season or a reason type. I am very clear on who I am, and the messages that I came here to deliver. And, with all integrity, one man actually facilitated what I would call a miracle for me, that was 55 years in the making, but that is another story, for another time.
Let me get back to the point. So far, when I meet or date, I’m triggering a reality check in these guys, and shogging them pretty hard, because they start taking a deeper look at their own lives. I haven’t done anything other than be me. I haven’t asked them to change. I haven’t told them what to do. I haven’t even made a suggestion, unless they ask.
The reason I know this is happening, is because at least three of them have communicated this is what happened in a very clear, open and deeply exposed way. They drew the conclusion they needed a reality check of their own, on their own. Their secret is safe. I’m not sharing any names, just my part of the story. The mutually parting of ways, has actually been a relief to me, because ultimately I do want that yang to my yin. Granted, we always have deeper lessons with our life-partners, but it should be a more balanced level. The experiences of seeing what I don’t want, long or short term, just gets me closer to finding what I do. To get there it is key to look at the lesson, and not shut ourselves off because of past hurts or wounded egos. In all sincerity, I’ve found myself congratulating these seasonal men for taking a step towards waking up, and wishing them a magical journey.
That is actually a wake-up call for me too, to see how empowered I AM. I’m in an I AM space, facilitating the awakening process, which is exactly what we all came here to do. We can take a journey with another, but how can we ever be happy until we are happy with ourselves.
At first, my daughter thought I was being mean, and I said, “NO I’m NOT Being Mean,” I’m triggering a path of self-discovery for them to discover who they already are, so they can be happy. That’s a joyous thing. Maybe somewhere along the journey, they will find that happiness.
In the past, it would have been easy to slip into ego, and think “well if I am so wonderful in helping these men, why aren’t they sticking around and falling in love with me?” So many people get caught up in ego when it comes to love, and allow themselves to get caught up in relationships that aren’t the right fit. I hear it all the time, and I ask why do you want them to stick around if it’s not the right fit? In the past, I got caught up in that too. But, that’s not me. That’s not who I am, and this life is not all about me. Funny, but I still shutter a bit saying the words “in love.” Yet, I’m happy. I’m laughing. I’m having fun. I’m finding immense joy (and a little ego satisfaction) that people around me are waking up.
I really don’t want them falling in love with me, or me falling in love with them, but I can certainly find appreciation and gratitude for the experience. As a survivor of abuse, I’m not a man hater. Like many of us, as a survivor of trauma, I’ve hidden my light. I’ve kept myself isolated. We all have a light to shine, and it’s not fair to leave other people in the darkness. So I shogged them a little, so what.
In this story, maybe you will find some new perspective and peace with your life. As I always say “you can have love without peace, but when you seek peace love follows. Let love happen naturally.
Be sovereign with yourself. Here’s a hint to my song selection; “you can’t control and independent heart.” We should never be under someone else’s control, or try to control them. We can love many people in different ways, and here is hint number two; we certainly don’t want to “tear the one you love apart.” Hint three; “Free, free, set them free.” Sting – If You Love Somebody (Set Them Free) No wonder I admire Sting, and I admire the relationship he and Trudy have. I don’t know about you, but I would love to aspire to something like that, someday, maybe? Article from DailyMail.com by Shyam Dodge discussing Sting and Trudy – Last Ship Premier
Second song suggestion; Back to Life -Soul II Soul Back to Life, Back to Reality.